“Honey, you can’t raise three babies alone!”
“I know!”
“You don’t even know how to warm a bottle.”
I sighed.
She knelt beside me.
Honestly, I was already thinking she was probably right.
Then the smallest baby lifted one tiny hand.
Her fingers searched blindly through the air before wrapping around my index finger.
The grip was warm, strong, and impossibly firm for a six-month-old.
I froze.
I couldn’t move.
“That’s June,” Mrs. Hunter said softly. “Patricia made sure we’d know how to tell them apart. Said the smallest one would always be June.”
“June,” I repeated.
The name felt strange in my mouth.
June kept holding on.
She didn’t know I had no money.
She didn’t know I’d never changed a diaper.
She didn’t know her father had abandoned her.
She only knew that someone was there.
“I’ll call social services in the morning,” Mrs. Hunter said gently. “There are good families, Noah. Ready people.”
I opened my mouth to agree.
I truly meant to.
Instead, I looked down at June.
“Okay,” I whispered. “Okay. Okay, I’ve got you.”
Mrs. Hunter went silent.
The porch light flickered once more.
I carried the babies inside one at a time.
Somewhere between the second trip and the third, something changed.
I stopped being Uncle Noah.
I became something I didn’t yet have a word for.
I became Uncle Noah, then Dad, by accident.
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Growing Up Together
Twenty-two years passed the way a long shift passes.
Painfully slow in the middle.
Gone before you realize it at the end.
I packed lunches using the wrong kind of bread.
I braided hair so badly that Mrs. Hunter often intercepted the girls before school and fixed my disasters on the porch.
“You’re going to give those girls complexes, Noah,” she told me once while brushing through Ava’s tangles.
“I’m doing my best.”
“I know you are. That’s the problem!” she teased.
I worked double shifts at the hardware store.
Then triple shifts whenever somebody needed braces, science fair supplies, or new sneakers because the old pair suddenly fit nobody.
There were science fairs.
There were fevers.
There were broken hearts I didn’t know how to repair.
When that happened, I made grilled cheese sandwiches and sat beside them while they cried on the couch.
There were also periods when all three girls seemed determined to hate me simultaneously.
At thirteen, June slammed doors.
At fifteen, Claire refused to look at me for an entire month.
At seventeen, Ava informed me that I didn’t understand anything.
The truth was, I didn’t.
But I stayed.
The Things I Gave Up
I missed things.
A cousin’s wedding in Denver because Claire had the flu.
A fishing trip I’d promised myself for ten years.
The opportunity to build a family of my own.
